Hmmmm

So my boyfriend finally came clean about some things that happened a long time ago and so did I. To be honest I’ll admit that I was nervous to ask him for the truth once again, knowing that I ran the risk of a flood of familiar feelings that I had finally managed to suppress after 6 months. But I asked. And they came for a split second, but then something greater… relief. I realized that it was never about the act of what happened, necessarily, it was really about the question. And I just couldn’t live with the question anymore of what really happened. And I was surprised that he came clean and was honest, I really wasn’t expecting that, I figured he would stick to his story in fear of hashing things again. He’s usually an avoid the issue kind of guy. But in telling me the truth he gained so much respect back from me that he had lost. And it shows me that he has grown from his mistakes. I finally gained closure tonight and surprisingly of all the emotions that I probably should be feeling I’m happy and excited to be able to close this chapter and start a new one. A fresh one where we have established our past and now we can build a future. We survived our first real rough patch, and in a two and half year long relationship, I’d say that’s pretty good. I know there are more to come and I feel prepared now. We are strong and can see things through. This sounds strange but it feels like we have finally chosen each other. We came to a fork in the road where we could have easily chosen our separate routes, but we both decided the road is only worth traveling together. I’m in love with my best friend =] I don’t think many people ever get to say that. We are the lucky ones.